Good day today. Cherrios for breakfast with coffee of coarse. Salad for lunch. Apple for snack. Chicken vegatable stirfry with brown rice for dinner. Sam's diet is gonna kill me. I wish I had the will power that he has. Don't know how much I've lost but the clothes are fitting better.

Completed the hat I started for Madison. I can't wait to give it to Joy in the morning. Hope she is working. Kate and I went roller skating this afternoon. I am hoping to skate my ass off. Well that and my belly, thighs, and everything else. I didn't realize how much of a work out roller skating is. After about 10 minutes, I felt like I had run a mile. Worked up a sweat and everything. It was sooo much fun. Kate and I tried to find an empty parking lot near the house but ended up in the high school parking lot. We did get a few looks, but for the most part I didn't care because it was a blast. I was proud that I didn't fall. At 42 falling on asphalt is gonna hurt. Kate had a controlled fall and scuffed up the brand new toe on her brand new skate. Did I mention they were brand new. She really seemed to like it so hopefully I have a skate buddy. She is 16 and at this point anything that we can do together is good.

Justin came over to do laundry. He is still planning on moving back home in a few weeks. I need to go ahead and start praying now. Justin and I have a 3 day max. I love him dearly but he has way too much Terry Weaver in him. We can rub each other raw in a matter of minutes. While he is in paramedic school, he won't be here that much anyway. I keep telling myself that. Talked with Andrew for a little bit today. The San Fran Bay Bridge is out again due to a big piece of metal that fell off it. Instead of a 30 minute commute it took him 2 hrs to get to and from work today. Lucky for him he car pools with the other Coasties so he isn't by himself. I worry about him getting lonely. Can't wait to hear from him when he gets his Halloween package. I even sent a present for my grandfish in California.

So off to the shower and to bed. Working tomorrow. Lord give me the strength and wisdome to handle all that comes into the ER tomorrow.

You Have Got To Be Effin Kidding Me!

Does Ralph Lauren really think this is what women/girls should look like? Seriously?! As a person who has struggled with weight issues, I just can't believe a major company is putting this image out there. Ok first of all, this has got to be photoshopped. If it isn't than this model needs to be hospitalized for some therapy and a damn sandwitch.

I am all about putting out healthy examples of women out there. Fat is not fabulous. Fat is unhealthy. Period. As a nurse, I understand the medical risk being overweight carries with it. I am a fatty. Not that I like it, but that is what I am. With that being said, I also understand how hard it is to loose the weight put have on for one reason or another. Hello, I have been on this roller coaster for all my adult life. One of the reasons I named this blog under construction is because I am always working on my body.

Ok so that is my disclaimer. Back to the point. Looking at this picture, and oh by the way there is another photo, this girl doesn't look human. Who's head is that big in comparison to their body? Are those arms or twigs? The width of her hips looks smaller than her head. Maybe I wouldn't be so upset if I didn't have a teenage girl. When Kate looked at this she said, "Why does she look like an alien?" I am blessed with a very self confident daughter. I wish I had been a little more like Kate. My teenage years were spent looking at Brook Sheilds and making my self throw up.

Now, as I said before being fat is unhealthy. Ok so being too skinny is also unhealthy. Anorexia and bulemia along with everything new that the girls seem to come up with these days. What I don't understand is that this model is 5-10 and 12olbs. Hey Ralph is that not thin enough? This model is beautiful so... why? I get not wanting to use fatties for advertising. Hell everyone wants to look like the models in those clothes. Even if we don't, we still want to think the clothes make us look like the models.

Just look at the REAL picture of the model and tell me what could possibley be so unattractive about her? Ralph....... hello, I ask a question? I'm waiting......

Playing Catch Up Jamestown and Williamsburg Virginia

Well I'm not starting out to well with this whole blogging thing. I am way behind. The summer flew by so fast and now we are heading into fall. I will be posting pictures from our summer trips to the lake and Virginia.

Williamsburg, Va. was amazing. I am a history buff to begin with but it this trip was like a living history lesson. I generally like Old South history, this was Colonial Williamsburg and Jamestown. It is truly amazing what our fore fathers did for freedom. The Jamestown settlement. WOW! I've always thought it would be fun to do Survivor, but those folks lived and died trying to establish a new country. Did you know that Pochahantas was only in her 20's when she died? I didn't. She had an amazing life but Disney wasn't even close.

Nightsweats....Hormones or sleeping with a friggin furnace.

I am having trouble sleeping again. I go through this every so often and it sucks. However we now have something new to contend with. The dreaded NIGHTSWEATS. So here is what happens just about every night here lately. I go to bed and fall asleep with no problem. About an hour or two later, I wake up sweating like crazy and feeling like I am going to burst into flames. I get up turn the air down to snow and lay back down on top of the covers. After about 3 mins the sweat has turned to ice. So now I'm cold. Crawl back under the covers and, here is the good part, press my cold limbs up to Sam. His usual response it to jump 3ft off the bed. Yes I know that is mean but damn I'm awake and need some entertainment. And the prossess starts all over again.

Now the women in my family go through "the change" pretty early. My grandmother thought she was done at age 42. Turns out she was just pregnant, but she didn't have another period. Not sure I want that trade off. Hell I know I don't want that trade off. So if it is hormones, then so be it. Lets get this show on the road and finnish the tour so to speak.

But here is the thing. Sleeping with Sam is like having your own personal heater in bed with you. It is great in the winter but not so much if it is above 70 degrees. When I wake up, Sam is either right up against my back or has an arm around me. Now I know you are thinking "how sweet". Ok not so much right now. He pulls me close, I push him away, I wake up sweating, turn air down, snuggle up to him, and the whole thing starts over again. This isn't even taking into account Sam's snoring and sleep apnea. So now you know why I'm not such a morning person here lately.

Captain's Log: 0001 Date: July 25, 2009

We boldly go where this Mom has never ventured before. Cyber space the final frontier. Yep that is me over there. Not a real good picture, but it is close to midnight so I'll find a better one later. I have been told many times that I need to start a blog. Why? I'm not sure. I think it may be because there is never a dull moment around here. I try to put a humerous spin on any and all situations making even the worst situation a good story.

I have been married to Sam for 24 years, and we have two sons and a diva. JB is 23 and is going through paramedic school while working as an EMT. AB is 19 and is in the Coast Guard, soon to be stationed in San Francisco. KB has just turned 16 and will be a junior in high school this year.

Besides being a wife and mother, I am also an ER nurse. Why do I specify ER nurse and not just say nurse. Trust me there is a difference. All of us that work in the ER are nurses, however all nurses are not cut out for the ER. Just ask anyone who works in a hospital and they will tell you ER folks are of a different breed. More about that later.

I love photography and hope that one day to make a living with the camera. There will be lots of pictures. I am a outside kind a girl that loves to get dirty and have fun. Softball, camping, kayaking, hiking, are just a few of our favorite activities.

Ok so Sam is fussing for me to turn off the light and go to bed. More later so stay tuned.
Peace out. TB